Monday, October 29, 2007

if this is who gets under the "Big Tent" then I'm looking for a Winnebago!

I went to my first Drinking Liberally event here in the Lou last week. it was held at the Royale, where they serve most excellent Tanq gimlets with fresh lime juice- straight-up with a sugared rim. mmmm gin gimlets... must thank that Mid-Atlantic women's college liberal arts education for developing my refined taste in cocktails. or as one guy I met at DL said, my refined taste in old lady drinks. as he explained, old ladies just want the booze. I suppose this is better than being saddled with the "girlie" drink tag.

so while sipping my gimlets, I chatted with the LGBT coordinator for the Obama '08 campaign in StL. seemed like a nice enough guy, though I was a bit disappointed in his response to the current McClurkin controversy.

just to summarize: Obama has hired a preacher/gospel artist, McClurkin, to participate in campaign fund-raising events. this particular guy is, to put it nicely, an anti-gay bigot. oh, who just happened to be "converted" from his sinful homosexual ways by finding Jesus. and he likes to go around associating himself with the likes of Exodus and others who praise the ways of curing gays! many liberal bloggers called out the Obama campaign on including McClurkin in this event, most prominently John Aravosis of Americablog, who has done an amazing job of keeping the story hot. eventually the HRC called out Obama for his position on this guy, and this is what I asked his LGBT coordinator I met at DL about. and the response...

"We are trying to be 'Big Tent' Democrats."
oh really? excuse me... blech

and then he proceeded to bring up Hillary and her positions/problems. don't get me wrong, I am not some huge Hillary supporter. in fact, I haven't really gotten behind anybody in the primary race. right now Chris Dodd and John Edwards are the only 2 guys who are consistently voicing positions that are progressive enough for me to get excited about... and there is not much chance for either of them gaining the nomination. and talking about Hillary is just a distraction from the bigger issue: in an attempt to be "Big Tent"- a phase that I absolutely hate- Obama and his campaign are giving a platform and a microphone to a known bigot. and denouncing his position does not take away this fact. you can't say, "wait, we don't think he is right, but we want him to come to our party because he will bring votes and money from people who think like he does!" Bah!

I am a progressive. and I am not anti-religion. those two things are not mutually exclusive, regardless of what the Right Wing Machine would have you believe. but anyone who preaches that being queer is an abomination is preaching hate. period. and why anyone who is claiming to be a progressive would want that associated with their campaign is beyond me. I have yet to hear a valid explanation from an Obama supporter or queer person why I would want to be under the "Big Tent" with a group of people who think I should be "cured" and that homosexuality is a "curse!"

Sunday, October 28, 2007

a little mood music

I really like this video from the UK's Bat for Lashes... it's spooky, melancholy, and involves costumes- making it perfect for Halloween!

also: bikes.
'nuff said.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

return of the prodigal daughter

well, I'm back in the Lou after some much needed R&R in Nashvegas. It was my Dad's birthday, a convenient excuse to get the heck out of Missouri and spend time with family. Well, that and the whole my-life-is-falling-apart bit.

some interesting news to report from the dirty South... first of all, the high rise condo craze has descended on the city. everywhere you look there's a crane and a hole in the ground. guess what's going to be there? condos. quarter of a million dollar and up condos. it's like a plague of locusts with drywall and Sub-zero refrigerators. and they have ridiculous names like "Rhythm" and shit. honestly, I don't think there are enough warm bodies in Nashville to fill all these frippin condos. even the local free paper had an article about over-building while I was there, though their take was a bit less grim.

even with all the condos going up, it was nice to head out to Radnor Lake (our own little Walden Pond at the edge of Metro Nashville) and hike around. my Dad, step-mom and I saw a barred owl, which I took to be a positive sign. I have a thing for owls. and this one was so beautiful. it was just nice to be in the same moment as that creature and to know that there is karmic balance somewhere in the universe for everything going on in my life right now.


I also ate way, waaaaay too much food while I was there. starting at the Tin Angel on Wednesday night for my Dad's birthday. I'm a bit embarrassed to say that I had never been to the Tin Angel before, but I did leave the city before I was much of a gourmand- I mean, at 18 you consider Waffle House an example culinary excellence. mmmm... scattered, smothered, and covered... the food at Tin Angel was excellent and the little place reminded me a bit of my favorite StL restaurant, Atlas. unfortunately, I didn't get my Tex-Mex fix in on this visit. but there will be plenty of other opportunities. Nashville has a very large and growing Latino population. it is always cool to drive through parts of town I remember vividly from my childhood and see an entirely new community taking shape there, including billboards in Spanish.

all in all, a re-energizing visit. hopefully I can push through this week and finish getting ready for Society for Neuroscience 2007. in 2 weeks me and 30,000+ of my closest neuroscience friends will be taking over San Diego for 5 days. I'm sure that you are anticipating the blog posts as we speak.

Friday, October 12, 2007

Oh I'll be the one to break my heart

I keep playing a song from Feist's album "The Reminder" over and over... I feel it all, I feel it all... like a little mantra. this week has definitely kicked my ass. I am so behind. it's hard not to feel like an old engine in desperate need of a tune-up. I keep sputtering forward, but no where close to humming along. fits and starts. lack of focus. I guess this is what happens when you are starting over from a huge loss. things feel battered and broken, maybe parts are a bit rusty and you have to knock off the dust and get everything back into a groove. I know it will happen sooner or later. it kinda has to, I suppose. eventually you acquire enough momentum to overcome the inertia.

not that there aren't good things to report. my work, when I'm actually thinking about it, is moving along nicely. I have the Society for Neuroscience meeting in San Diego next month. I was selected to present at the Circadian and Sleep Data Blitz, which is a pretty big deal. I should be able to start writing a paper or two in January and need to start working on figures for those. as well as my poster and slide for SfN. all my outreach stuff is great. busy busy. it's exciting to see how many students and teachers we are reaching in St. Louis with our Brain Awareness events. I'm spending time with friends, trying to meet new people, reconnecting.

I want to start writing real posts again... on politics, food, culture, education. these things are barely on my radar at the moment. just gotta take it one bit at a time. more soon.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Sunday, October 7, 2007

how certain times in your life would make a really good short story, part 1

despite the ridiculous heat that continues here in Missouri this weekend (it should NOT be over 90 degrees in October- damn you, Al Gore!) my friends and I had some most excellent adventures. thank you, awesome support system, for taking me out and showing me a good time. so now some highlights:

on Saturday, I climbed into Santiago's new Mini with Kim and we all headed West. our first stop was the Robller Vineyards, an old favorite. we ate and drank in the intense sunshine.

with one bottle down and a few purchased for later, we started tracking back east towards Augusta to try a few new spots. the wine was okay and we were a little put off by the large crowds of "tailgaters" at a few of the places. luckily we found a pretty nice patch of grass at Balducci's and amused ourselves listening to the cover band and watching an 9 or 10 year old boy spin around in circles.

after leaving Balducci's we headed down into Augusta, a tiny town which boasts not 1, but 2 wineries, a microbrewery, several adorable B&B's and access to the Katy Trail. we sampled some tasty wine and beer and I enjoyed taking photos in the beautiful late afternoon light.

we finished our day at Montelle's, which wins the prize for the tastiest red I had tried all day, as well as the best view. rolling Missouri hills, trains, good wine shared with friends, boursin cheese and baguette, and an amazing sunset. I couldn't have written it any better...


stay tuned for part 2 soon...

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

isn't she?

she turns herself 'round
and she smiles and she says
"this is it...
that's the end of the joke."

shout outs to:
my literary and musical saviors.
Gchat procrastinators.
purveyors and connoisseurs of food and drink.
those of you who are just checking in... regularly.
the first days of Fall.
weekend plans. (Shaw Art Fair, Best of MO market, winery tours, gardening)
plane tickets.
bike rides.
a Chancellor Emeritus.
birthdays.
knitting.
new things. (babies, houses, cars)
and trying to move on...
not for all the tea in China
not if I could sing like a bird
not for all North Carolina
not for all my little words
not if I could write for you
the sweetest song you ever heard
it doesn't matter what I'll do
not for all my little words